i will survive

hey i figured i AM gay (contrary to popular belief) so i should incorporate one of the gay anthems into a subject line at least! what i meant was: i'm still alive and the docs say i might actually remain that way for a wee bit longer. my breathing issues and the extra-hard and fast heartbeat were remedied by them tripling up on my water pills. so, for at least a week, i'm going to be leaving pisses in an even quicker succession (grammar?)....is "succession" the word i'm looking for here? doesn't sound right to me. it sounds CLOSE, but not quite right. help me out here folks...... so i piss like a racehorse (NOT Russian! Russians are scary to me...sorry Russians) for a week then go back for them to check me out. THEN a wek after that i have an appt. with my normal cardiologist (Dr. Olson) and by then he'll have been fully apprised of my situation and it's up to him to decide if it's pacemaker time or heart transplant time or time to do anything at all. so, we shall see...and i'll keep you all posted.....and thanx for everything. luv u guys seriously. forgive me for all the mushiness, but i always get like that when it's "death scare time of the year".