that's it, i'm turning myself in

hey guys. i'm sick again. well, i've been a little sick since june but as of today, the major symptoms of my congestive heart failure are back. when i woke up this morning i could SEE my heart beat. my left tit (the heart side) is bouncing up and down like crazy! i think my enlarged heart has gotten even bigger. just to test it, i laid down and put my remote on my chest and you should've seen it....it was like a mexican jumping remote control. also as of today, the breathing problems are back. i seriously can hardly breathe. i have an appt. at the docs tomorrow so i'm gonna take it easy today and go in tomorrow for my scheduled appt. at 330. the last time i was hospitalized i was there in ICU for 8 days and that was WITHOUT surgery. this time, i'm sure i'll be getting the much talked about pacemaker. at this point i'm HOPING for the pacemaker as opposed to the heart transplant. if i'm missing for a while i'll be in touch with my shellie and she'll be able to let all u guys know how i'm doing. keep ur fingers crossed for me!! luv u guys 4real!!!